if u sit and study a research subject for 4 days then you definitely will tend to dream and imagine things that just don't exist.

you will very much create things in your mind that have no relation to reality.

i am beating around athe same bush because that is what is done in all 12 ppts.

 

 

When I see ma pal online I am damn excited  sometimes, glad most of the times and attimes I feel ‘o no, now even this assignment is not gona b completed’.

 What is with this online chatting? So many years have passed but there is no change in my behavior towards online chatting. Whoever it be on the other side of the screen, I am always the same. People with varied psychologies and attitudes became my best of buddies and disappeared like they never existed. When I say disappear I mean both that either I blocked them or I irritated them to the limits that they blocked me. Whatever  way the effect of the action was same. But I never understood why is the frequency of online chatting so high in my desire list. I get disappointed, distracted and even lost from my real life goals; just because of those online pals whom I did not even know in actuality. Even then I never banned this knack.

I never ate those choclates again which I didn’t like certainly I never stopped eating choclates for that sake. Similarly I never chatted again with those pals whom I didn’t like but I certainly wished to get rid of this knack of chatting. But I never did.

I am aggressive in some cases when I want to chat with someone and the other person don’t respond; I do the worst of things ending up  implying negative image of mine on others. Well all this is like contemporary history (because of the recent my old ID don’t exists for very dumb reasons and therfore with this new ID I don’t have many pals to irritate myself or them). Still that knack of chatting exists.

I observed that I tend to keep online and keep chatting only when I have no other intresting work to do. So this online chatting is not on its higehst frequency on my desires list but rather on the lowest. And in case there is no other desire, it is only this option that my soul is left with. And with this realisation I realised that I should not harass myself all the time saying that I spent time only on the worthless habbits. I should and would rather employ some more intresting jobs to my list to allow variety in times of joblessness.